I’m not too sure if I want to talk to you any more.
Yeah, sometimes it’s really nice but like you’re too needy. I don’t want to be mean, but you suffocate me.
When I talk to you, I feel bad.
And now you’re back.
You’re in the group you split up.
I don’t think I can ever forgive you for that.
And just seeing you there makes me want to leave again.
But I deserve to be in that group!
I didn’t do anything wrong.
I love everyone there.
I missed everyone.
So I’m not leaving.
I wonder if I can block your posts.
I thank all of you because I’ve never done so.
You are all there, some reading posts from the beginning, some just came across a post while scrolling through a tag, but either way you gave me advice, wished me the best, assured me that everything is going to be okay, or even just let me know you’d listen.
I never got back to any of you, I don’t know why. Probably because I was scared, I’m not even too sure.
So I hope you are all doing great. I hope you know you’re just as beautiful and amazing as some of you tell me. I hope that I could do something for you in return, but I have no idea where to start. Just thank you so much. <3
I think it’s like seven months not purging and almost 3 months not cutting and I mean serious cutting, not like the lines I did on my hand that never showed.
Hello again old friends.
No.
You’re supposed to be “talking” to someone. I hate that term, I have no idea what it’s purpose is.
So I’m doing the proper thing and stopping communication with you.
I’m stopping the random texts that I send and the talking in the halls, classes, and just randomly going to your locker.
This is what I’m supposed to do because soon you’ll be dating her.
So please, don’t make this harder on me.
Don’t suddenly start making an effort and talk to me. Don’t take the seat in front of me when there are plenty others in the class especially when we have assigned seating and you sit nowhere near me. Don’t give me high fives when I walk to my next class and you’re just there.
It’s hard for me enough as it is.
I put myself on the line like I’ve never done for a guy before.
I never sent him messages first, I never openly flirted with him, I’ve never done any of this before because I never actually thought I had a chance.
So I’m sorry if I’m trying to get this idea of us out of my head. I’m sorry I’m going have to push you away for a bit so I don’t get hurt anymore then I do now.
Understand that I’m just saving myself.
The best feeling comes when you realize you’re perfectly happy without the people you thought you needed the most.
(Source: sheamnessy)
You just can’t go say “You’re not what I expected” to a person who is suicidal and constantly compares herself to other.
How do you think that makes her feel?!
And then, when she posts something on her tumblr about it you can’t tell her not to post anything like that. It’s HER tumblr. She can post whatever she wants on there.
If the only people she trusts are friends from on line and then she finds out they are talking about her behind her back, how do you expect her to react. I know people say stuff when they’re mad, but really if you don’t mean it apologize. Don’t make a “read more” post about how it’s uncalled for to kill herself by something you said and that it was a lie?!
That’s how people get pushed to the edge.
Maybe THINK next time before you say bullshit like that.
erya:
I’ve though of this so many times, but I’m gonna tell it when my parents and I are going to meet my teacher and she starts to say that I have bad grades etc. I’ll do it, but I’m going to end at mental hospital again.
I sent my teachers an email saying I wouldn’t be in class one day because I tried to kill myself the day before. only one of them responded with any concern. actually, she was the only one to respond at all.
another one made suicide jokes the next time I was in class.
(Source: stop-go)
Here’s to us
To all of us
<3
